standing on a beach with a nun wearing all white.  she tells me that the woman out in the waves has been crying for me the whole time.  i can see myself in a hospital bed, head wrapped, faced bloodied and beaten, drugged and in a coma.  i’m embarrassed that she has seen me in […]

it’s the 19th century.  in our heavy cotton white night gowns i check my sister’s hair and see bugs in it.  if her hair has bugs, then mine does too.  i put her to bed and go look at myself in the mirror.  the lantern behind me makes the mirror dark.  i’m not at all […]

hiking alone at night over frozen snow.  when i reach my destination (a place where the starlight makes the snow glow blue-white) i look up to see the star in a moonless sky.  i find it easily, burning much brighter than any other star. i see it oscillating up there and remember my history lesson. […]

We’re walking up to the border.  right behind the giant painted sign welcoming us to Mexico is an arch of neon lights and flashing shapes: WELCOME TO BUCKETHEADLAND So this is where we’re going to live and find jobs. Ok! I can make this work.  I get a job at a facility that trains dogs. […]

cleaning up a second floor common area in our dorm/school.  it’s a huge open space with white couches lining the walls. a guy is there and he’s nervous because it’s his first day working for us.  he’s running the before and after school program for local kids.  he asks me how many kids he should […]