Hannah having trouble breathing when on her side, but ok when she’s on her belly.  Wishing I could do more for her.  Promising I won’t leave her. Driving by a field and seeing my grandpa walking toward the road, looking to be in great health. Feeling near tears because we can’t stop to see him. […]

in a white farm house like Jaimie’s. i am watching through the windows.  there is a kid at the end of the driveway, hitting the ground with a stick and pacing.  there is a teenager walking in circles in the yard strewn with leaves.  i go out the side door onto the deck and there […]

at my aunt’s house, someone is reading Kevin’s old letters.  There’s one in there about the doll.  the doll is in the trunk.  it’s a rubber and latex doll that looks just like kevin.  super fucking creepy.  but, people are in mourning so you can’t say that politely.  we put the doll back. at home […]

in a movie theater watching the super bowl on the side wall.  on the actual movie screen in the front is a preview for a movie that will be shown after the football game.  it’s a Steve Martin dramedy combined with something like Legend. we live in a post-apocalyptic world so this is the only […]

i go to the movie theater and watch a film narrated by steven with his boston accent.  it has taken the country by storm and is more of a powerpoint presentation than a movie.  you can purchase worksheets to follow along.  the entire thing is a meditation on a particular plant in bloom.  its petals […]