Hannah having trouble breathing when on her side, but ok when she’s on her belly. Wishing I could do more for her. Promising I won’t leave her. Driving by a field and seeing my grandpa walking toward the road, looking to be in great health. Feeling near tears because we can’t stop to see him. […]
In a hospital lab. One of the nurses tells me she’ll give me a Death Card. She is a Death Agent and she tells me that after three episodes, I’ll be an Agent too. I put the plain business card in my wallet feeling very proud and excited. Pulling into my grandpa’s long gravel driveway. […]
In a 2 person fighter jet. we were part of some kind of air force academy camp. i knew he was going to show off and give chase. i knew he would do so while we were still upside down. i screamed and giggled and protested in delight. in the middle of my grandpa’s living […]
Dreamed of Jasper and Spazz, Jan and my grandpa, red corduroys with three pant legs (one, right, had an under layer. one, left, was full of holes and it was the side with my bare leg beneath). Cat food shopping in a crowded mall. Watching The Good Wife (haha brain, good one). And Karen? But […]
Dreamed that my grandpa died. But time was warped so later in the afternoon I went and sat on his lap and we talked loving small talk knowing that he was going to die earlier that morning.
tornado with a molten center. i saw it forming out the window in the middle of a conversation when i glanced over. like a portal to hell if anyone could believe hell was above instead of below. i don’t know where it took us. obliterated the floors above and ripped us right up out of […]
in my father’s mansion, we are an extended family of entrepreneurs. i’m working on a new sales model. i think about it while cross country skiing with my grandpa. back home, under the warm yellow lights, i start to work it out. i want it to succeed by making the world better, not by padding […]
i swim-slithered through the wet grass in magical patterns for what felt like hours, lulling my snake self into a trance state. then i stuffed and sewed up soggy jack-o’-lanterns at my grandpa’s house. and i kept finding keys.