Hannah having trouble breathing when on her side, but ok when she’s on her belly. Wishing I could do more for her. Promising I won’t leave her. Driving by a field and seeing my grandpa walking toward the road, looking to be in great health. Feeling near tears because we can’t stop to see him. […]
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it’s the 19th century. in our heavy cotton white night gowns i check my sister’s hair and see bugs in it. if her hair has bugs, then mine does too. i put her to bed and go look at myself in the mirror. the lantern behind me makes the mirror dark. i’m not at all […]
Seth finds me in an abandoned rusty car parked under a tree in a field. he’s on his way to deliver food. i get out and we embrace. i’m so freaking happy to see him after all these years. but we have no time to catch up. he gives me a $20 bill and tells […]
ann is showing me the wedding invitations. she wants to make sure they are alright. they are so very ugly. pads of thin yellow and pink ruled paper, like those that came in cheap 80’s notebook sets, cut into cutesie shapes that unfold like paper dolls. the paper is so thin the ink from the […]
i am applying for a job at NU. i write to the hiring manager to tell her that I know there is a rumor about something I did but that, if given the time, I can explain how it was better for the organization that I did it. This pisses off the President who happens […]
i’m looking at a class i want to register for. it’s with a professor i like and they are reading a book that i’ve always wanted to read but i don’t need the class and i’ll be home with my family for part of the term. will i be able to read 1,080 pages if […]
i was looking for work. going from business to business to ask about openings. i was way out in the country and headed to another stop. the business was a white building down a long gravel driveway. i stopped at the fence posts and looked out across the field. it was a beautiful sunrise. the […]
we have no money but we’ve somehow come into owning a house. it’s falling apart. the wood siding is rotting, the paint was worn off years ago. but the big farm house is ours. we move in – me, my mother, my ex, some other people that have nowhere to go. the house is cold […]
things i did in my sleep last night: rode dirt bikes through a field that looked like a basement to everyone else. let brett cut my hair and cried because he gave me the chuck liddell look. put food under furniture coverings for the people under there in furniture poses. discussed the false dichotomy of […]
dreamed that i made “jewish bread” with holy hieroglyphs baked in. it was hard and sweet – not for me. but i broke it into chunks and gave it to the old people partying at the nursing home. it softened when dipped in vodka-ensure tonics and they loved it. then i rolled a gigantic metal […]
