in a white farm house like Jaimie’s. i am watching through the windows.  there is a kid at the end of the driveway, hitting the ground with a stick and pacing.  there is a teenager walking in circles in the yard strewn with leaves.  i go out the side door onto the deck and there […]

we’re on a boat.  we know it’s going to flip as soon as the wave rolls under us at the wrong angle.  me, my mom, my sister, and my cousin.  age 1991. we don’t have life jackets.  the water is incredibly deep.  the shore is very far away. somehow we are rescued.  the dream skips […]

i dreamed of a kitten appearing in my room with bandit and jaspers. but it wasn’t a kitten. it had coyote teeth and was a solid heavy orange thing that kept attacking me. i kept trying to catch it without it latching on with its jaws and yelling a warning to anyone that would listen, […]

In a hospital lab.  One of the nurses tells me she’ll give me a Death Card.  She is a Death Agent and she tells me that after three episodes, I’ll be an Agent too.  I put the plain business card in my wallet feeling very proud and excited. Pulling into my grandpa’s long gravel driveway.  […]

at my aunt’s house, someone is reading Kevin’s old letters.  There’s one in there about the doll.  the doll is in the trunk.  it’s a rubber and latex doll that looks just like kevin.  super fucking creepy.  but, people are in mourning so you can’t say that politely.  we put the doll back. at home […]