Getting settled in our new home. Arriving there and discovering that it is nothing but cement and latex paint. we move in anyway because we’re starting out on our own and it’s what we can get. i stand in the bedroom door while he’s talking to me and i notice hannah chasing something. it’s a […]
Category: january
crying. saying to a friend, “just tell him the only thing i ever wanted was for him to be sober for a year.” and him, making promises, holding me. and me, temporarily relieved of the duty to push us apart, knowing it’s all a lie.
in some kind of government camp. if we can find the secret ingredient, we can go another year without having babies. everyone is on the hunt for it. I know the answer. I even remember the number. or at least, that it was in the 60s. we are led into a space like my high […]
standing in a park scene very much like Seurat’s A Sunday Afternoon. i came here to support the protests but the crowd has thinned and i promised my family i would see my dad while he is in town. as i decide to leave i am shot. i don’t see who is shooting or even […]
in a classroom loft. i’m 14 or 15, stuck in some kind of mystery school detention center. i put my money down carefully on the desk but the bills are picked up by a draft and go over the edge. I stare down and see that they made it outside and landed next to the […]
They tell me Alenia is dead. That she killed herself. I don’t believe them. No way. And how would they even know? So I call her. She answers. I knew I was right. I tell her that people are saying she’s dead and she tells me it’s true. No. No you can’t be. That’s crazy, […]
i had to check in with the government to make sure i was healthy enough to work. (the government was a bombed out burger king.) they examined me and the nurse told me my lady parts were dirty so i couldn’t leave. they drugged me using huge needles but i woke up and scrambled out […]
we put all of our money together for alyssa’s birthday present. i got her a tiny gold castle and a porcelain waterfall. they were so intricate and fragile. we all hoped that she would like them. but the waterfall was the water only, it didn’t have a cliff to hang over. i was setting it […]
dreamed i could throw up walls anywhere to create a safe space for practicing magic. my shields went up in the middle of the desert. in a restaurant that was closing soon. in a professor’s home next to a meditation pond like the one in this dream. while sitting on a surgery table in the dark […]
we are in a place that is a little like Prairie House. Communal feeling, but also business-like. we all sit in the main room with our coats and sleeping bags but i keep trying to get people to go through a side door in a room to our left that leads outside. no one does […]
